Tough day and an even tougher night....

Well I think I am calling it a night at 915pm. I have the feeling that I am going to hit an emotional wall in the coming days. I'm kind of glad that I have a long weekend yet at the same time I'm worried that my morale is going to be lots of peaks and valleys in the coming days and that I won't be as busy as I could be. I don't want to dwell on a negative thoughts. This too shall pass!

Sometimes Mistakes Are Made

So here it is bright and early in Marc world on Wednesday, March 31st. I had another night of sleeping in fits and starts. I think that is the expression. I am not sure if that is it exactly but it sounds like it is. One day I will have to look up the origin and meaning.

Anyways I woke up thinking. Grrr! I prefer waking up gradually but today I woke up feeling misplaced guilt. It's quite enough that at times I feel guilty and take responsibility for my own actions and inactions but why oh why this morning did I feel like what recently occurred was my fault. I make mistakes. I'll be the first to admit to that. I didn't this weekend. Last night I tried talking about it. I tried sorting it out. I really tried to jump back on the horse to use a cowboy metaphor. I was told that I needed to face the fear. Well I wasn't ready to deal with that. Especially when I think that I had to do something that gave me the heebie-jeebies because of another's action. As Shaggy sang: "It wasn't me!"

First Time Blog Here

Well this is my first time blog on this site. I'm hoping that this will help me deal with things much like the previous blog space did. I was blogging about things I liked. Things I disliked. Things that made me go hmmmmmmm. Things that made me go WTF. This last day and a half has been a trying time. My life went topsy-turvy on Saturday 330pm. I never ever felt like I did that day at that moment. I still am not sure how to deal with things. One minute I am okay. One minute I am totally effed up. I am sure that in the coming days more stuff will come out. I have always thought that we are given what we can handle or are on a path to deal with what we can on that given day. This next little bit of time will tell.